On pointless struggles, and the nature of camps

I always feel like there’s that nagging voice inside one’s head: that voice that tells us that everything we’re doing is pointless. “What’s the point of writing this? Nobody is going to read it.”

“What’s the point of writing this? Nobody is going to read it.”

“What’s the point of writing your third book? your first one isn’t even off the ground yet.”

“What’s the point of going to college and getting a degree? The economy is so bad, it’s not like you’ll find a job either way.”

You could think of your own examples, I’m sure. Life is filled with pointless struggles (essentially, if it doesn’t put food on the table, or put a roof over your head, isn’t it pointless)… I find myself pondering some of these very questions. I’d even be willing to venture that there are several “camps” inside my mind. One camp (Camp A) rewards conformity to the norm, the other camp (Camp B) rewards nonconformity and outside-the-box thinking.

My formal education taught me that most problems have multiple facets to them: There are black and white solutions, for sure, but there are also solutions with multiple shades of gray in between (quiet, you. Stop laughing). Those of us that see the spectrum of gray in the middle are the ones who usually like to think in nuance and try to solve issues creatively. I’m not saying that I see the whole spectrum, but I am aware of it and always make an attempt to unravel its secrets before proposing solutions.

“Evil always rushes in to fill the void created by the absence of good. The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good people to do nothing, and unfortunately, that is what too many good people choose to do. It is our lack of intense, disciplined activity that has allowed evil to flourish and good men to flounder. If life does not seem fair sometimes, we have no one to blame but ourselves.” ~ Jim Rohn

Camps A and B always seem to be at odds with each other. I don’t think that’s just true for just me either – I think that’s true for most people out there (correct me if I’m wrong, please). In my personal opinion, our lives are shaped by which camp holds the most influence at any given time. If conformity wins over nonconformity, you usually get valedictorians, people who have stable careers and often people who work hard at their jobs.

“Research shows that what makes students likely to be impressive in the classroom is the same thing that makes them less likely to be home-run hitters outside the classroom.” ~ Eric Barker

Individuals who fall into the nonconformity camp will often not fit into the traditional roles and molds that society has neatly carved out for everyone. This is what makes them innovators and game-changers.

“The people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who do.” ~ Rob Siltanen

This morning I was pacing around my apartment, just thinking about life and how it might look like 5 years down the road for me. It’s not that I didn’t fall asleep this time, it’s just that I fell asleep too early and woke up at 4:00 am. So of course, I did the thing I know how to do best: pace, think, and drive myself into an anxious frenzy over the future.

If you’be been paying attention, then you’ll know that my first-draft for the Fracture Point Series, Book #2 is complete! So, of course, the nagging voice inside my head says, “The first book isn’t even out yet, but the second book is complete! Why? Work on seeing if the first book is a success, and then THINK about writing the third one.

That’s what I meant when I said “that nagging voice” earlier: The voice that tells you to give up until something happens, or certain conditions are met. I don’t know how it is for everyone else out there, but for me… the thing that (literally) keeps me up at night, and gets me up at dawn, is my writing. I’d venture to say that my writing is more important to me than my photography (which is saying a lot, since I love photography).

“If you don’t design your own life plan, chances are you’ll fall into someone else’s plan. And guess what they have planned for you? Not much.” – Jim Rohn

So screw waiting. I want my first novel to be successful, but I’m willing to say this right now (as unpleasant as it might feel): Win, lose or draw – I’m not giving up on my writing. I’ll set up a Patreon, or find another way to get more $$$ to funnel into the editing, cover design, and advertising of book #2, Book #3… so on and so forth. I don’t know yet, but… At this point, it’s not even a matter of debate. This is what I want to do – and I’m not letting anything stand in my way. Period.

Is it scary? You bet. Is it hard? It is. But then again, nothing in this life worth having ever came easy. If it did, everyone would have it.

“A man’s worth is no greater than his ambitions.” ~ Marcus Aurelius

Now then, if you’ll kindly excuse me. I have another novel to write (Book #3 of the Fracture Point Series, to be specific).

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